I regret having sex with my dad…
I had sex with my dad for years and regret it.
Okay so it sounds disgusting how could you do something like that but remember I was the child he was the adult…
So I had a normal childhood I have brothers but ìm the only girl. Growing up I was a daddies girl my dad was and is my hero. I loved this man so much I grew up in a normal household mum and dad and being the only girl I was spoiled had my own bedroom while my brothers were cramped in one bedroom. I was my daddies princess. Looking back i had a idealic childhood I was happy content I can’t find any red flags and my dad never perved on me or did anything sexual which makes this all the more confusing…
My mum and dad had a loving relationship but when I became a teenager they started to fight a lot and I mean a lot my dad would get kicked out of his marital bed and end up sleeping in my ròom as their was no space in the boys bedroom he got kicked out so much he ended up putting a bed in my room… my mum fed up tried to kick my dad out the house but I wasn’t having it told her if he leaves I’m leaving with him. My mum then said I’m going to my parents if u love your dad so much stay with him im taking the boys I was like fine I’m staying and when she left thats when it started.
I was now home alone with my dad everyday he would pick me up from school everyday at night we’d watch films and cuddle some weekends we’d go movies or restaurants I’m a a daddies girl and I was having a blast then one night he was tickling me and I ended up sitting on his lap and I felt something hard I’m so naive I didn’t understand at the time but my dad started kissing me and it wasn’t a normal kiss I love my dad so I kissed him right back then he started taking my clothes of and sucking on my tits I was so turned on
He was my first sexual experience he turned me on kissing me and sucking on my nipples. He slowly took of my jeans then worked on my knickers I’m now laying naked on the sofa. He spread my vagina open while still sucking on my nipples and slowly penetrated me. I said daddy it really hurts stop and he said it’s only the first time and u will enjoy it more later on. He spread my vagina open and started penetrating me again and I said daddy it hurts and just rammed his dick in me so quick I screamed in pain yet pleasurable he started pumping his dick in and out I was a bit sore. I didn’t moan but was breathing heavy. In my mind I was in shock I just could not believe my dad was having sex with me i was thinking omg omg. While I was just thinking my dad finished I got up went to the toilet to wash the blood and ran to bed. I think i was crying when my dad walked in my room and said I’m just checking on my princess and I told him I was upset I had sex with my dad what if ppl find out. My dad told me it was our secret and that nobody will ever find out I was relieved about that and he told me we had a extra special relationship my daddy held me all night long till the morning and I felt happy safe and loved my dad knows how to comfort me. In the morning he woke up with a hard dick and i sucked his dick like it was a babies bottle and I let him fuck me legs wide open moaning in his ear. And that is how i started having sex with my dad. My dad eventually moved out got a divorce and I moved in with him we continued our relationship I felt good I was sleeping with someone that loved me my father going to school and getting sex everyday. I became his wife almost my dad had no girlfriends only me he knew how jealous I got over him and kept our relationship just me and him it was like that for years. I skipped some details like the time mom caught me and dad. Long story short she called police I denied everything dad denied everything and we said she was angry about the divorce and is just using me to destroy his life police closed the case. It’s fair to say my mom hates me. My dad taught me how to give good anal blòwjob different positions my dad taught me everything I know. I must admit I got into masturbating at a young age so my dad fucking me was like welp don’t need to masturbate anymore.. felt good I enjoyed it. My dad said my vagina is beautiful he loves watching his dick go in and out and making his lil baby moan and I love to moan and call him daddy during sex. I’m always moaning daddy I love u so much during sex..we did this for years but I’m older now going to college and want to experience boys my own age
Now that you’ve heard my story you would think I have no emotional problems. I tried to research incest and it’s all about emotional trauma which I don’t have my dad is quite loving actually I do have some stress just not to the extreme were I want to commit suicide I just walk around with a heavy dose of regret everyday. It’s like I’m mourning my fathers death eventhough he is alive. He was my superhero but now he may aswell be dead I feel that I have no father. And I never will the man that is supposed to me my father had sex with me for years. I developed a distrust of men I don’t believe in fairy tales and I never want kids quite frankly men are quite disgusting. I know everything my father did to me so i dont believe men when they say they wouldn’t sleep with their daughters causing me not to want kids or trust men Eventhough I was enjoying myself I wish I never did it that way I would still have a father. There are no happy endings when it comes to incest.
My mother hates me and my father I’m lost I really want my daddy back but that’s all destroyed. I moaned daddy in his ears so many times hes just not my dad.
I would not advice it this destroys lives my mum hates me and developed a drinking problem I think I caused her to spiral out of control and I feel guilt….
And I feel like I have no father and I feel regret. I want to fix my relationship with my father but I don’t know how…
I spend many years being his girlfriend in private and daughter in public that I feel that he’s only a dad when people are around when we are alone doesn’t matter what we are doing it always ends in sex…
I want to fix my relationship with my dad I know he will always listen to me but I feel like I lost my superhero …
My mother never wanted to fix our relationship she makes me really jealous because they really loved each other and I lost my virginity to him hes mine.
Even though I want to have a normal relationship with my dad I will never allow my mum to touch him I’d rather he get a girlfriend if he’s going to break my heart.
That’s another reason I hate my dad why am I jealous over my dad not normal we shouldn’t have had sex I wish we had a normal relationship…I wish I had a father…
Do incest situations ever go back to normal..