I am a happily married middle aged woman with kids and I travel a lot for work. All said I’m gone for about 40 days out of the year, while my husband stays home, works and takes care of things with the kids. I work as a vendor in a pretty male-dominated field, and so these business trips are events attended by mostly men. Not to brag, but I take care of myself and get plenty of attention from the men who attend these events, which I suppose is largely who I have the job I do and am good at it.
Long story short, about 7 years ago I found out my husband had had an affair the summer after we got married. He never told me, and I found out quite by accident and never told him I knew. Instead of confronting him about it and trying to deal with it I ended up having an affair with a man I had known for a while through these trips, and continued to do so with him and other men over the years when I’d travel for work. I suppose it was as out of revenge, since our sex life was and is mostly pretty satisfying. As I continued the affairs it became more of a thrill and so I would increasingly engage in more risky and extreme sexual behavior—including unprotected sex, sex with multiple partners at once, and “things I don’t let my husband do,” you get the idea… Alcohol was often involved, but I don’t lose control when I drink, and I’ve known most of these men for years, most of whom were themselves married.
Unfortunately, I was getting caught up in the excitement of it all and allowed myself to be video recorded having group sex with 3 men in a hotel room at one of these events not long ago. There are 5 separate clips that range between 2 or 3 and about 10 minutes, recorded by the men I was having sex with who were passing around an iPhone. I won’t go into the details of what those videos show, but let your imagination run wild and we probably did it. They took turns, they took me at once, it happened in every hole, and it happened both on me and in me. And the videos were…graphic.
I trust all the men I was involved with, as much as I can given what we are all involved in. Even though this was almost a year ago and so far all is well and I’ve been told the videos were deleted, I have this sneaking suspicion that a reckoning is coming and that I won’t like how things turn out.